When I was a younger I really used to look forward to my birthday. My grandparents would make it a super awesome day. My grandma would make sure I had a cake and my grandpa would make sure I had flowers and I would get to do whatever I wanted. (as you can see from the picture to the left, I even got to sit on the table)
As I grew older my grandparents would still make sure my day was special, having dinner, and one thing that I could alway count on was for sure there was a birthday card in the mail with a check in it for what everyone called "The Birthday Allowance" not a ton of money I think it started out at $20 and every year my family would ask me how much the "The Birthday Allowance" check was because I was the one that usually set the going rate. Once I turned 30 the allowance grew to be $30!
My husband thinks its because they spoiled me so much and I now that their not here anymore I don't get spoiled anymore and even if he tried he couldn't spoil me as much as they did. He probably right in some ways. But I'm pretty sure I fell like this because it makes me realize how much I miss my grandparents and that they are no longer here to celebrate with me.
Before my grandpa passed away I asked him who was gonna love me unconditionally like he did. He was the only man that loved me no matter what and I could always count on him. He told me that I could count on my husband, and that I needed to give him a chance to show me how much he really loved and cared for me.
My husband is a pretty terrific man and sometime I forget and don't see that. I need to remember what my grandpa told me and trust and let him take care of me and love me like I need to be loved.
I need to let my boys spoil me on my birthday and not get disappointed if what they planned falls short of what I have come to expect.
I'm hoping this birthday is awesome and filled with great surprises.
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